And this is why I don’t tell you anything.
The second I speak a word of my mind you always have to go do something fucking stupid.
What were you trying to prove ?
I have enough shit on my mind and I can’t even say a single word of it because then you’re just going to give me more to worry about by overreacting and cutting yourself or trying to OD or something fucking stupid. It doesn’t help that I can’t really talk to anyone else either because no matter what I do or say it always ends up getting back to you. Give me a fucking break.
Oh and why don’t you go complain some more about how I’ve been high for 6 months and how much that pisses you off that I’ve been high the whole time we’ve been dating, sorry for doing the one thing that helps me keep it all together, I guess I’m such a fucking criminal for doing the one thing that somewhat takes my mind of the fucking problems you caused for me. I wonder if you have forgotten why I have all these problems and why I can’t keep it all together, the core of all this sadness. When I’m not in a good state of mind then you probably shouldn’t try to make it 10 times fucking harder for me.
Seriously just fuck you. I’m fucking sick of this.
I’ve managed to keep it all together longer than I ever, It’s not fucking easy. Considering I can’t tell you or anyone else anything I tend to repress a lot of shit, and that tends to be a problem. We broke up so often because I would repress everything and then every so often It would all just build up inside and it would be too much and I’d finally tell you what’s been bothering me, at least I had a release at some point but I haven’t had any kind of release like that since forever. If one month was too much to handle without me loosing my mind then consider how fucking hard it’s been to keep it together this long. I can’t even release one word of my thoughts without you overreacting.
So fucking sick of this fucking shit, FUCK.
Chances are, you’re going to go do something drastic or stupid yet again just because of this, because I chose to speak my mind.
That’s just what I wanted to see.
How would you like to watch me bleed? because I’ll make it fucking happen if I have to.
Fuck this, fuck you.
Going for a walk, won’t be back for quite some time.
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